The words keep ringing in my head
And I can’t put them down to bed
No matter how I try
They just keep coming to life
‘Cause you whip me in the eye
When you feed me all your lies
And no matter what I say or do
I’m gonna have to face the truth
I’ll always end up stuck with you
What am I supposed to do?
When the world is falling down
And I’m flying ‘cross the ground
You’re always on the chase
And there is no escape
From the pain and your beatings
And I can’t stop the bleeding
You’re such a waste of life
I just want you to die
But I guess it’s not your time
I’m always thinking to the past
And how I landed here so fast
And then I put all of the blame
On the day I first heard your name
And now everything has changed
No, nothing stays the same
Then I count the things you stole
From my heart, body, mind, and soul
And though I cannot break your hold
This I just want you to know…
When the world is coming down
And I’m flying ‘cross the ground
You’re always on the chase
And there is no escape
From the pain and your beatings
And I can’t stop the bleeding
You’re such a waste of life
I just want you to die
But I guess it’s not your time
I always did my best
And I soared above the rest
But then I got burned
It’s not what I deserved
Now there’s no going back
From your ruthless attacks
And there’s no one here to save me
From the scars that you gave me
I guess you’re always in my life
You’re always in my life
Always in my life
My life
My life
You’re always in my life
When the world is falling down
And I’m flying ‘cross the ground
You’re always on the chase
And there is no escape
From the pain and your beatings
And I can’t stop the bleeding
You’re such a waste of a life
I just want you to die
But I guess it’s not your time
So you’ll always be in my life
I wrote that song. Enjoy it, interpret it, there ya go. That's it. See ya!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Odd One
"Odd one you're never alone,
I'm here and I will reflect you,
Both of us basically unattached to anything or anyone unless we're pretending,
You live your life in your head,
Some call it imagination,
I'd rather focus instead on anything except,
What I'm feelin,
What I'm feelin,
Odd one...
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Odd one I wish I was you,
You're never concerned with acceptance,
We are all desperately seeking out and fitting in with any one who will accept us,
But not you,
Odd one...
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
Gonna laugh at this one day,
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Don't let someone tell you you're no-one,
Don't let someone tell you you're no-one,
Odd one..."
By Sick Puppies
Music Vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wgbv3d-k7sA
Got a ton of music from 6 different artists I recently got into for Christmas. Sick Puppies is one of them and is at the top. This song has to be my favorite. Love it so much! Why?
I'm weird with how I analyze songs, actually. Well, besides the usual fact that they help me cope with my disease and I twist the lyrics to fit around that situation. It's hard to describe, really. It can be different for each song, too, and it often is. In this song I can have a couple of different outlooks or points of views or whatever you want to call its on the entire song:
In the first stanza I relate it to myself. Mainly, the 4th-9th lines of the stanza. Even though in the song the point of view changes in those 4 or so lines, but in my head it stays the same. I twist all those lines into an expression of myself. I've ALWAYS lived inside my head and when I was very young, and still even sometimes today, it WAS/IS my imagination. But, also today it's become something very different too, and not so nice. This is how I tie in the last 4 lines of the stanza into my life as well. It's not just imagination anymore, it's....well, I don't know what to call it, but it's much darker than imagination. I guess it'd be called coping in a way, but it's not really anything that effective. Just dwelling, and wondering, and fearing, and thinking, and feeling, and obsessing, etc. all about the worst thing that's ever happened to my life. I'd rather think about anything else, but I can't seem to find a way.
The first part of the first stanza is a little less defined for me. I guess it's just the desire or hope for someone to feel that way about me and for me to feel about them. To have a connection with someone that I've hardly ever had before. The hope for a life partner, not so deep. ;-)
The second stanza is where I change my point of view. Not where I'm being sung about but where I'm the one doing the singing. I feel exactly the way the speaker does in this part of the song. I know some people like the subject of this stanza and I totally want to be like them. I'm always self-conscious about myself and always worrying about what other people will think. Especially with my disease, but that has gotten a little better. I've always been like this and it's another thing I wish I could change about myself. No matter what I do or what I tell myself I can't shake the idiocy of self-consciousness and caring about what others think.
The chorus; short, sweet, simple, and to the point. I absolutely love it! That's definitely a hope thing for me. The lines kind of give me hope of what I should and can be able to do. That, eventually, I can learn to live with this is a more reasonable fashion and learn to live my life to the fullest. That one day it won't matter to me, that I'll be COMPLETELY ok with it instead of just accepting that it's here with me. I hardly ever feel a hope like that, but when I listen to songs like these I can feel like that for a brief moment in time at least.
And the final lines. Just like the chorus I love how short and simple yet deep the words are. I think it's a very positive and useful message to anyone in the world, and it does a lot for me too. As I said before I care a lot about what people think and lyrics like these final ones in this song help persuade me to be different. Yeah, I haven't changed yet, but when I'm listening to the song it makes me want to be and makes me believe I can be. And I always try and sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't but the power and the hope the song gives me and the act of trying is all that I think really matters.
Well, this is the first of many song analyses I am going to be doing on this blog from now on. I hope you all enjoy.
I'm here and I will reflect you,
Both of us basically unattached to anything or anyone unless we're pretending,
You live your life in your head,
Some call it imagination,
I'd rather focus instead on anything except,
What I'm feelin,
What I'm feelin,
Odd one...
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Odd one I wish I was you,
You're never concerned with acceptance,
We are all desperately seeking out and fitting in with any one who will accept us,
But not you,
Odd one...
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
Gonna laugh at this one day,
Hey,
It's gonna be OK,
Hey,
We're gonna laugh at this one day,
Don't let someone tell you you're no-one,
Don't let someone tell you you're no-one,
Odd one..."
By Sick Puppies
Music Vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wgbv3d-k7sA
Got a ton of music from 6 different artists I recently got into for Christmas. Sick Puppies is one of them and is at the top. This song has to be my favorite. Love it so much! Why?
I'm weird with how I analyze songs, actually. Well, besides the usual fact that they help me cope with my disease and I twist the lyrics to fit around that situation. It's hard to describe, really. It can be different for each song, too, and it often is. In this song I can have a couple of different outlooks or points of views or whatever you want to call its on the entire song:
In the first stanza I relate it to myself. Mainly, the 4th-9th lines of the stanza. Even though in the song the point of view changes in those 4 or so lines, but in my head it stays the same. I twist all those lines into an expression of myself. I've ALWAYS lived inside my head and when I was very young, and still even sometimes today, it WAS/IS my imagination. But, also today it's become something very different too, and not so nice. This is how I tie in the last 4 lines of the stanza into my life as well. It's not just imagination anymore, it's....well, I don't know what to call it, but it's much darker than imagination. I guess it'd be called coping in a way, but it's not really anything that effective. Just dwelling, and wondering, and fearing, and thinking, and feeling, and obsessing, etc. all about the worst thing that's ever happened to my life. I'd rather think about anything else, but I can't seem to find a way.
The first part of the first stanza is a little less defined for me. I guess it's just the desire or hope for someone to feel that way about me and for me to feel about them. To have a connection with someone that I've hardly ever had before. The hope for a life partner, not so deep. ;-)
The second stanza is where I change my point of view. Not where I'm being sung about but where I'm the one doing the singing. I feel exactly the way the speaker does in this part of the song. I know some people like the subject of this stanza and I totally want to be like them. I'm always self-conscious about myself and always worrying about what other people will think. Especially with my disease, but that has gotten a little better. I've always been like this and it's another thing I wish I could change about myself. No matter what I do or what I tell myself I can't shake the idiocy of self-consciousness and caring about what others think.
The chorus; short, sweet, simple, and to the point. I absolutely love it! That's definitely a hope thing for me. The lines kind of give me hope of what I should and can be able to do. That, eventually, I can learn to live with this is a more reasonable fashion and learn to live my life to the fullest. That one day it won't matter to me, that I'll be COMPLETELY ok with it instead of just accepting that it's here with me. I hardly ever feel a hope like that, but when I listen to songs like these I can feel like that for a brief moment in time at least.
And the final lines. Just like the chorus I love how short and simple yet deep the words are. I think it's a very positive and useful message to anyone in the world, and it does a lot for me too. As I said before I care a lot about what people think and lyrics like these final ones in this song help persuade me to be different. Yeah, I haven't changed yet, but when I'm listening to the song it makes me want to be and makes me believe I can be. And I always try and sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't but the power and the hope the song gives me and the act of trying is all that I think really matters.
Well, this is the first of many song analyses I am going to be doing on this blog from now on. I hope you all enjoy.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Ghost Hunt and FRIGHT
I've been watching different ghost hunting/paranormal investigation shows for a little over a year now, and I absolutely love them. A lot of shows I have some problems with because I feel like a lot of the stuff they do are extremely faked by the crew and cast of the show. However, most of the time I am absolutely enthralled by the events that take place on these show. No matter how much I enjoy these shows I always had a little doubt that the stuff that happened on them aren't real. So when I got an email about a real, professional ghost hunter coming to Moravian College for a ghost hunt, I jumped at the opportunity.
Friday October 22nd, Ross Allison of Advanced Ghost Hunting Of Seattle-Tacoma (AGHOST) www.aghost.org came to Moravian College to talk about the art and psychology of paranormal investigation and to lead an actual ghost hunt with willing students at haunted sites throughout the college. The program started a little after 8, there were some technical difficulties so it got started a little late, and Mr. Allison began with a powerpoint. In this presentation he discussed how he got into the field, what type of work it entails, how to get into it, what to use, and things he has done with it. He also included evidence he and his team had collected from previous investigations, and I can even describe how creepy most of the clips were, both visual and audio.
At about 9:30 he finished his powerpoint and announced that we were gonna go out and do some investigating. He gathered up a team of 12 from the approximately 35 students who were participating to handle his equipment in pairs. I was on the team and handled one of the two thermometers. There were also 2 EMF detectors, specter wands and something else that I don't remember. We were originally going to go to a couple haunted buildings here on the north campus but they get locked up at night and campus security didn't know about the ghost hunt and wasn't allowed to open them for us. So we walked down to south campus to go in a said to be haunted dorm house/academic building.
It was the Brethren's House. This place used to be a civil war medical hospital in certain areas before it got taken over by the college. We started in the one main hallway with all the lights off. Nothing much happened at first but during the time Ross Allison took a picture that caught an orb on camera and I had some big temperature fluctuations at time. (76 F - 70 F). Then we moved over into a music practice room that used to be a hospital room and did an EVP session and there was a big EMF spike. Then we went upstairs to the 3rd floor music department hallway and Ross claimed to hear women whispering next to him (I didn't hear them and I was close) someone claimed to hear shuffling down the hallway, there were some temperature and EMF spikes and someone caught an EVP on their cell phone recorder. It was a very distinct female voice saying "Hello?" We went to two more rooms throughout the night but not much more happened after that.
I was blown away by this experience. It really got me more into it than I had ever been just watching the shows. It made me decide that I want to pursue this at least as a hobby. I'm gonna collect all the equipment I need to start at a beginner level for Christmas and read up on the science and workings of how to do things right. My best friend, Colleen, is going to join me and I'm gonna see if I can get some more people with me to form a team. Have a few places already in mind for easy availability to start things off to do some investigating. I already have a name picked out for our future group. FRIGHT: F(ph)antom Research, Investigation, & Ghost Hunting Team. I can't wait for this! I'm so pumped! I never thought of actually doing this stuff for myself. Thanks so much to Mr. Ross Allison for inspiring me!
Until next time, this is Lizzie
Friday October 22nd, Ross Allison of Advanced Ghost Hunting Of Seattle-Tacoma (AGHOST) www.aghost.org came to Moravian College to talk about the art and psychology of paranormal investigation and to lead an actual ghost hunt with willing students at haunted sites throughout the college. The program started a little after 8, there were some technical difficulties so it got started a little late, and Mr. Allison began with a powerpoint. In this presentation he discussed how he got into the field, what type of work it entails, how to get into it, what to use, and things he has done with it. He also included evidence he and his team had collected from previous investigations, and I can even describe how creepy most of the clips were, both visual and audio.
At about 9:30 he finished his powerpoint and announced that we were gonna go out and do some investigating. He gathered up a team of 12 from the approximately 35 students who were participating to handle his equipment in pairs. I was on the team and handled one of the two thermometers. There were also 2 EMF detectors, specter wands and something else that I don't remember. We were originally going to go to a couple haunted buildings here on the north campus but they get locked up at night and campus security didn't know about the ghost hunt and wasn't allowed to open them for us. So we walked down to south campus to go in a said to be haunted dorm house/academic building.
It was the Brethren's House. This place used to be a civil war medical hospital in certain areas before it got taken over by the college. We started in the one main hallway with all the lights off. Nothing much happened at first but during the time Ross Allison took a picture that caught an orb on camera and I had some big temperature fluctuations at time. (76 F - 70 F). Then we moved over into a music practice room that used to be a hospital room and did an EVP session and there was a big EMF spike. Then we went upstairs to the 3rd floor music department hallway and Ross claimed to hear women whispering next to him (I didn't hear them and I was close) someone claimed to hear shuffling down the hallway, there were some temperature and EMF spikes and someone caught an EVP on their cell phone recorder. It was a very distinct female voice saying "Hello?" We went to two more rooms throughout the night but not much more happened after that.
I was blown away by this experience. It really got me more into it than I had ever been just watching the shows. It made me decide that I want to pursue this at least as a hobby. I'm gonna collect all the equipment I need to start at a beginner level for Christmas and read up on the science and workings of how to do things right. My best friend, Colleen, is going to join me and I'm gonna see if I can get some more people with me to form a team. Have a few places already in mind for easy availability to start things off to do some investigating. I already have a name picked out for our future group. FRIGHT: F(ph)antom Research, Investigation, & Ghost Hunting Team. I can't wait for this! I'm so pumped! I never thought of actually doing this stuff for myself. Thanks so much to Mr. Ross Allison for inspiring me!
Until next time, this is Lizzie
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